I nearly never put my IM on, simply because I am not much one for idle chat. Besides, I usually attend to several tasks at the same time on the computer, work for a start, which means some income for me with the translation I sometimes do, English/Spanish or vice versa, for a construction firm, and other times contracts, mail with clients, etc. Talking on the IM would tie me down to one person far too long. Usually it's about nothing more than small talk anyway.
But I did last night. On the other end was a Spanish lady friend, who sounded statically happy. Her glee was contagious and I must say I quite enjoyed having some happy news for a change. She must have told the whole world the good news already, and I happened to be the last one on her list, as she just went on and on for ages, telling me she had finally found her 'Principe Azul' (Blue Prince in Spanish, equivalent to 'White knight' in English). Mind you, this must have been the 10th time she found her prince in the 4 or 5 years since I knew her! Wouldn't surprise me too much if she finds another one before the year is out. A woman forever falling in and out of love!
Too many women are still conditioned to believe in their white knight, who would one day, at any given moment, comes galloping on the white horse, to carry them away to their own little Shangri-La. The one and only, the perfect and eternal love, to turn them into a real woman, a lover, wife, mother, and Queen of the castle.
I was brought up believing that too, waiting for mine, but only till my mid teens, when I learned that reality was not quite like fairy tales. I gave up the dream of finding my Blue Prince and started seeing men as men, just like I am never going to be anyone's princess of their dreams either, merely an ordinary girl with faults, tempers and definitely lots of limitations. I realized that only when I gave up my ideal Prince could I learn to love men as they are. Not just one, but capable of loving different ones at the right moments. Not that mine didn't come; He simply didn't exist.
As to my friend, let's say I am not holding my breath waiting for the invitation to a wedding. I am just very happy for her because she is happy. For the time being!
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