I must be one of the rare few that don't really have a hobby, not what the word literally means - an avocation, some activity you devote all or much of your spare time in practising or pursuing, regularly, untiringly & with great passion.
Things
or activities I am very fond of & passionate about are plenty
& varied. I enjoy reading & writing as early as when I wad
first able to recognize a few words, then soon afterwards began to put
these together, in my own way, to show off to anyone who was cornered,
willingly or reluctantly, to take a glance at my effort. I was three
& a half. This early passion had later helped me conquer foreign
languages with relative ease.
I
am mad keen on music, acting, drawing, sketching, singing &
especially dancing, listening, watching others or performing myself,
& have done so in all those fields. Then I discovered the pleasure
of knowing languages; everything else took 2nd place, put on hold, or
practically discarded for the single minded goal, the domination of
languages.
Perhaps
what interests me most is learning, often just for the sake of
learning, So I devoted myself to studies of just about anything I felt
like learning, without any specific objectives of intending one of them
a career qualification. I even went through & graduated in
dressmaking & accounting, knowing fully I would never actually rely
on either to make a living. I hated mathematics in school so accounting
was a real contrary. I certainly didn't need to make myself dresses,
most of what I wore was provided for, or as a reward given, or bought
at a fraction of the cost, being a fashion model for many years.
Was
it my restless spirit, or the compulsion to face challenges, or my
never ceasing curiosity to test my own capacity of endurance, that had
relentlessly pushing me to do all that? I don't know, only that as soon
as I got confirmation, in each case the graduation certificate, it was
immediately shelved & I was itching to get on to something else.
And anything I had taken on seriously, I had never given up half way.
Destiny
though had other plans for me! Apart from English which had turned me
into a teacher in English literature & grammar, none of the other
certificates I had been awarded had ever been put to any practical
use. Had I wasted all that time & effort without making use of the
hard earned knowledge? Maybe. Could I have done something else instead with the time which might later actually be useful to others or myself more? Possibly. Have I ever regretted all that misused energy to no practical purpose or gain? Never.
I
am gratified with the few modest but well deserved achievements. If my
little brain has not exactly been enriched, it has certainly had some
damn vigorous exercise during my formative years. No, I do not
considered any of it a waste of time. I have not gained wealth or
position, but I am now better equipped to face this chronicle &
incurable self indulgence of forever seeking answers & solutions,
which still lingers ...
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